Welcome to my YouTube channel: http://www.youtube.com/bloomingparis

:Leap and the net will appear: ~a Zen phrase.

I have decided that I will be vlogging going forward, rather than blogging. This way I can be offline enjoying life which is so important to me, and also sharing so beautifully {and including you in my life}within a community setting with keywords for those who my vlogs relate to {hopefully you}. So, I hope that you’ll join me over on my channel going forward.

here is the start of a new journey! **cheers! Who knows what beauty will unfold, and how magical & delicious it could be!!!

and a beautiful inspiration to tag in with today’s video too! i really enjoyed this!

warm hugs,

Jenn

–make me a Sweetheart Cathedral, God! That is my one desire left.

“(Only) You can fill what is empty!”

“YES!”

nothing else matters.

“Live through me. oh to breathe and oh to feel your breath and, oh to love like a fire burning…”

—–emptying out…. to welcome the new—–

“You can take these broken pieces and use them just the same, and that will be Your Glory.”

hugs,

~Jenn

do you agree with this concept? or do you think fragmentation is just part of the journey.

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The heart is after all – the gateway to life.

The unknown is a dance, a romance with the Source.

I’ve made a commitment to coming to know Love for myself in a {whole} new way.

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All healing is first a healing of the heart.
~ Carl Townsend

When I get feeling tender inside, I like to retreat to the coziest place possible. It takes a lot for me to respond in a new way. I’ve always done this, ALWAYS! since I was a little girl.

Some people run to other places, I’ve always found the “home” place closest to me that feels like home. It doesn’t have to be a person, but it has to feel safe, where I can maybe sometimes sleep, or rest awhile and wait for the storm to pass.

Healing is a journey.

Recently, I had a discussion with God. It was very honest.

I told the Divine energy Source that I think healing as a process is stupid.

I mean where is the magic button, and why does it have to take so long to heal sometimes.

I felt that I got the answer I knew I needed but didn’t want.

It flowed in instantly and rushed through my veins, and I wanted to SCREAM NO! get away,

I don’t want that solution. I don’t want to open up further to the feeling, the hurt and the uncomfortability.

I wanted to avoid feeling, and the crazy thing is I’m such a feeler.

I’m either numb, or I’m a super sensitive, emotionally intelligent.

so this answer was yuck, even though it was right on the button of my life.

The very button I didn’t want pushed at all!

Healing out loud, are you kidding me? I said.

I don’t trust people.

The True Shepherd of Life wanted my heart, to care for it, to nurture it, to tend to my scars.

It was time to give all the broken pieces over, and to believe in the miracle He is making of me.

I feel fragile, and I don’t want to feel worse.

I envisioned a bandage, and He saw a scar with potential.

<sighs>

WHY!!!

Sometimes, the process feels so organic and yet so wrong.

Why was I really holding back from His Perfectly Loving Hands?  I am His.

My heart was still broken, and I couldn’t leave it in His hands long enough to heal it.

In the midst of waiting,

He’s tending to these wounds that are underneath that scar.

He’s teaching me a lot about unconditional love.

Isaiah 40:11

He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.

Jeremiah 29:11 (my life verse)

For I know the thoughts I think toward you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future.

In the process of the Divine healing my heart, I don’t feel like stepping out, I feel very reserved.

but This One Divine Invitation of Love, I cannot walk away from.

I know that I am still in the hands of my Maker, my Healer.

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He’s up to something, but not sure what He’ll shape me into yet!

Reflections for you today:

What do you think about waiting in your life, and healing as a process?

Are you in a quiet season of trust and reflection?

Will you trust the Master Artist to heal your (brokenness, scars) of your heart?

will you settle, or allow yourself to become whole?

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hugs,

Jenn

Stepping away from the rush and the crowd soon brings one to recognize the real meaning of connection and community again. It begins with being true to one’s self, Again and this time protecting that at all cost.

This Transformation IS necessary because its foundational. We can’t live from our core, and attract truth, if we just don’t know our truth, our needs, and our heart’s vision.

Think about it.

It’s….

there is a lot of pretending going on, to hide the hurts –the truth about the lonely.

And we’re all lonely.

“Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.” ~anonymous

I miss the familiar, but not enough to return to it.

The other month I gave up facebook, it felt hard to do but also so worthwhile for me to do it. Most of all I found it was wasting my time and quite addictive causing “needy habits” and “pampered the ego” too much. And the truth was I found there wasn’t much connecting really going on in real honesty. It was more checking in, and avoiding living the Real life offline. A great excuse to hold off on what my heart wanted me to do instead.

So, I miss some of my lovely friends on there and have switched to being a loyal email er and messenger ist!

but I feel that in the last month, I’ve gotten so much of my Real Life back, it is like WOW, Breakthrough. I cannot imagine it happening any other way! I am not writing this to try to convince others to quit it, if a) self -discipline is evident and b) focus on why you’re there and if it’s working for you .. great stuff! I just couldn’t do it though, it was either all or nothing for me.. I am so emotional and get attached to others easily so i can’t “half-in and half-check something, I’m just too loyal, so its in or out.”

Anyway, for me the right balance for now was saying “Yes!” to my life.

Checking in, within my being has been so eye-opening, and beautiful and unraveling, and this clarity that has been clearing through the noise and the bouncing energies that once filled the space, is so healing.

I plan to not go back to the old ways, because I’m actually starting to have FUN again.

I like this part from the movie: Eat, Pray, Love where the main character says to her ex  as they are finding healing and closure. In the daydream: He says I miss you so much, and she says “So, miss me, and then let me go.” Every time this feeling comes up, do it again. I’m right here. Now let me go.

I find that I’ve been doing this as well lately, thinking and sending thoughts to those I care about rather than running back to the familiar places we used to meet –I send love, and I hope they know I love them from the memories we built together over time, but I know that our lives are meant to move on. Things change, and we are not meant to stay in one place forever. It’s just not natural. it’s hard but its so important to be able to love, and not claim or hold tightly to something that never did belong to us. Everything and every one is a gift. Even the term “mine” is easily overused and over-abused with people in our lives. I’m learning to challenge that and recognize that I am blessed moment to moment to experience love with another living being, who I call spouse, friend and traveling sibling, or a loving pet that I adore caring for.

but there is another factor here that is still true..

Just because I stepped back in a few areas does not mean that I don’t need people.

I think I want to not need people because it feels safer, and I like living a less stressful life, but the truth is I do love people and when I’m in a healthy balance with my own life, I feel able to be engaged with other positive and diverse individuals.

The challenge is balancing my inside and outside times, or I get overwhelmed, overdrawn, drained, empty and fast!

If loneliness is inevitable, what’s the point of avoiding it, right?

Sometimes I have had lonely spells, just like anyone else, so why embrace it? Who wants to?

I think it hurts less actually feels good to just come right out and say it: “I’m lonely right now, or admit to myself that I am feeling ready for some new opportunities soon to welcome fun-loving companions in my niche, etc.” Then it passes through me, and I start feeling better, and this spaciousness doesn’t feel so necessary to be filled. It feels well, like open space. Room for growth.

So, the question then becomes what can we do when we’re lonely that is fulfilling and even fun?

Creativity forms.

I tend to lean toward this friend, rather than sign on to social networking as much anymore.

Sure it is important to connect with others, but then there is also Finding the Right Balance.

And so, loneliness isn’t necessarily good or bad, it just means that we do need each other.

The challenge is “how much are we depending on others to fulfill us? and equally how much are we creating from our heart and soul to give back to Life?”

It’s a difficult, sometimes uncomfortable feeling that is raw, and empty even unto depression or a trigger of sadness reminding us of a time in our past that is painful to remember.

BUT,. What is the right balance between dancing in and out with people in-network as a floating habit society calls normal and/or embracing the path of solitude to focus and live an artful life.

Possibly we all need our own % of withdrawal, and engagement.

What percentage do you feel you need in your life? I guess that is the main question, and listening for what our core is telling us so that we can live a well-balanced life with others, and being friends with our Self too.

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Authentic Community Living: (often comes after the solitude hours of deep reflection of who we are, what we need, and where are we going in our own lives)

I think before we can be found in authentic communities where we are able to be who we are, we have to learn to come into our own first. This is the beginning before we can get clear on where it is we feel we most belong, and who/what complements the strengths of who we are. From facing the lonely, I believe that new strength and a path is before us clears for us, welcoming us further. Only this time, it’s okay to step out and team up, because we know who we are, and our values, and there is no more pretending. We are as we are, and so now we can give our best in the community we have chosen.

Here’s the microphone. What are your thoughts on loneliness, online networking and finding a balance for your life? Most importantly, what is working for you?

hugs,

Jenn

By starting off on a blank slate, you redefine the way you live life, and redefine what exactly is important to you, and what you care about. ~anonymous blogger

So I’ve been thinking,.. some things need to change, in how I fully engage and dip my paintbrush in an ordinary life. I recognized this yesterday evening as I sat out on our balcony in my cozy pink chair. 

We have our routines and such. So the magic is not there. Rather, life is magical in the areas of what is “living!”and in the response given back to Life. That’s the magic, it’s IN us. Everything else is ordinary.

If I’m focused on what is dying and wanting to be shed, I cannot (believe)be living in the “life” and the blossoming. I am always evolving, and in a state of letting go.

I am called to embrace the opening.

The magic is in the respond of tapping into this gift of LIFE and it is a GIFT.  It takes a choice to participate in this magic of flow, instead of waiting or continue to do what feels necessary only because it has been familiar.

What makes for a quality existence, anyway?

I believe that it needs to be customized for each individual by each individual.

For me, lately this has begun to look like a once familiar theme that somehow fell back into old patterns.

Refreshing one moment, one day at a time for a strong week is exhilarating.

This last week was totally amazZzzing in this way… It felt divine! And so personable.

One strong week inspires another.

the series of slowing down and withdrawing  in the last month from all of those easy to blend activities and expectations began this new *blank slate living for me. I am loving my life, again! I have time for me now!

It’s incredibly rewarding and –clearing and slowly re-balancing.

Highlights from my latest strong week!

*Waking up naturally, with the birds singing.

I honestly believe that after a good 3 weeks of stepping back, our lives take on a new rhythm and pace of their own, and our natural body clock kicks in more, and even certain cravings that once came from unmet needs are now becoming goals and energies to pursue dreams more clearly.

It has been wonderful to not hear my alarm clock, and since I’m already up, I don’t hear hubby’s annoying cell alarm either. I love that! hehe

*The magic of the day for me is 5:20AM or 5:30AM –which has “ME-TIME!” written all over it.

When honored at this wake-up time, I feel so great and motivated because I’m waking up for fun! What a great way to start the day –unrushed. Often I will be found drinking some herbal tea, journaling, enjoying the first sunlight coming through, and making a nourishing breakfast while enjoying doing so.

*Learning to protect my most productive time: 10AM to 2AM or technically early morning after my ME Time which could be as early as 8AM – noon or a bit after.

I have heard it said that we train those around us how we are to be treated, what is acceptable, what it is that we will be for them, and what patterns they can expect of us. So, it is also true that we must retrain gently and sometimes resiliently and staying true to our core in this time of shifting for “more concious living of our own life.”

This is what I have begun to do, and its been more “taking back my life, round 2, after withdrawing from so many social networking expecations.”

I have begun to protect my mornings too, and let the few people closest to me who are family and close friends that it applies to that I am available in the afternoons for more relaxing talk times. This gives me “breathing room” that I need to give my best where I have to give “IN MY DAILY LIFE” to what my heart most desires to meet. Of course I think it is essential to make time for the ones we love, but we can still do so in a way that honors our core being and self-care and our purpose in life.

It’s about Living in my Strengths zone.

So, shifting to the afternoon is really a small adjustment that is more kind to my needs, and my heart’s wishes for its greater purpose. In the afternoon I am winding down more than that refreshing boost in the morning which I need for working on projects with a clear mind and clear energy. It’s like doubling up for success in that time frame. This is my strengths zone and It’s been fun claiming this slot again.

*Everything is a CHOICE that will create more Reality: Getting more radical about Living from my center.

We will be creating more of the same familiar, or more of the new that is new lessons to learn and also pleasures unknown.

*What else was great about this week: I am also enjoying cooking again and spending more time preparing simple, delicious and nourishing food for hubby and I. It is wonderful!

old loves are returning, I missed cooking and enjoying the art of this ritual. I am recognizing as well which foods and what times I need lighter meals and when I need a bit more –basically the details are arising naturally again and I feel much more empowered because I’m putting better “quality” back into our lives. Investing in myself, and my hubby in this area, feels so good.

*Slowing down is becoming essential for me, to feel strong. And I do feel more confident as I do so.

I used to rush here or there or multi-task but I am learning to check things once rather than a bunch of times in the day like email, and some days I might not check it til the next. I am learning to attend to my first priorities, and honor sensitivities when I feel I’ve pushed a bit much and then I might turn down the computer and stay off for awhile.  Small areas of self-care and slowing when I feel I need to recover in some areas and regain strength again.

example:

Allowing some gentle space between emails at times is actually renewing and courteous.

While driving, giving soft space between the car in front of you and yours is so kind.

You know that feeling when you’re getting pushed, its a bit stressful.

What a lovely way to bless others when we respond thoughtfully and allow ourselves simplicity and depth.

And so, May this post be an inspiration and permission slip for any traveling guest to know:

You too can have blank slate living. “The Time Is Now!”

I dedicate this song to us Reclaiming Our Lives, Today! **so go enjoy it! enjoy you too!:

It could be you are here for a reason, and I believe you are to read this message today.

What do you need right now in your life?

What is important to you?

What do you care about?

You can make it happen, and you can enjoy the fullness of “life!”

If You Listen Within and Truly Allow Yourself to Be, You Will Be Happy!

hugs, Jenn

but depending on what we need from moment to moment, day to day, etc., our tastes can change or certain songs can ring so true for us… and how awesome is that!

So today’s random blog post is about my latest fav. music.

Here are my top 5 songs /artists that you may have heard and maybe a few you haven’t …

Lately, I have been most impressed with the following:

1. Avril Lavigne – her latest CD called “Goodbye Lullaby”, it’s honest and seems to me she has her old style back with more quality and experience and emotion from a deeper place of reflection. I like it, and while I wouldn’t necessarily choose a favorite song on her cd over another one, because it seems to tell a story and one that we can all relate to in our own ways, I will say that her ALICE music video is wonderful! (even while I have not seen the movie yet, fell in love with this at the right time on my personal journey.)

[bonus one: tagging one more of her awesome music videos in called Innocence~ I love this song and video of hers too..]

2. Adele21 - I happened to stumble on this lovely British artist a few weeks back, at a key time of some well earth-shaking life revelations … and I love her music video and song: “Rolling in the Deep”… check it out! Awesome sound and video, I don’t know how she possibly stayed in that chair! Meanwhile, I can see how that would add to the passion of the song.

3. Taylor Swift – her song, Enchanted

there are different music /and or lyric videos on this song I like, but I like this one of her singing in Paris!

obviously, extra magical for me since I love Paris!

In my last blog post is the lyrics and audio for this same song, my other favorite way to hear it. So lovely!

4. Ellie Goulding – thanks to the royal wedding articles and such I found out she was asked to come to one of their private parties in the evening. I’d say my favorite song of hers is “Starry-eyed” while the royal couple loves her song: “Lights”..

so here is starry eyed–

5. Switchfoot, Hello Hurricane CD. Pretty much most songs on this CD are awesome and I felt drawn back to this lately..

Now, it’s your turn!

I welcome you to name your top 5 songs … lately. You’re welcome to share a list below or add a link to one or back to your blog post sharing your music.

hugs,

Jenn

ENVISION THE BEST IMAGE {that comes through} FOR YOU:

TIME

ENERGIES

RELATIONSHIP

and I encourage you to make Yourself priority for your own life.

I love this song, and today I dedicate it to YOU for YOU.. go and LIVE YOUR LIFE, now! it’s yours, all yours!

*luv you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are sparkling, don’t you let it go! You deserve to be YOU! We need you to be YOU most of all…. xxxxx ~~~Please BE YOU….. ….

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Friendship with one’s self is all important,
because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world.
- Eleanor Roosevelt

hmmm.. so one of my older journal pages somehow turned when I wasn’t looking and I caught  a peek at this one page where I was talking about “Time, Energies, and Relationships” –I felt nudged to talk about this topic on my blog tonight, because I feel that these are possibly the most difficult areas to balance in one’s life.

Imagine if we had harmony choices made in these 3 areas. wow! Our lives would certainly change.

Consider these few thoughts in each category tonight, and analyze where you’re at with the happiness and harmony and clear energies with these.

TIME

1. Do you own your time? (What are the first thoughts when your alarm goes off or when you check your messages? these are clues. How do you feel?)

scenario 1: my friends are expecting me…here +++___. ___.___.

scenario 2:  i need to ___ ___, __,_____________,_______ x more lines then I wish to add, carrying over cyclic or remnants into the next day.

scenario 3: I consciously engage in the activity that I enjoy –”me time,” because I’m worth it, or because I have a sense of self understanding, or because I have needs too, and its okay to keep myself priority.

The imbalance cycle or a personal feeling of conviction might look like this {before, during or after the above scenarios}: I must live my own life as an author of my own experience, meanwhile I find myself after I’ve gotten a bit feisty, nasty, and sometimes overly defensive whether I’m meeting expectations of myself and others. Guilt follows, and I feel like I’m a bad friend, and I’m still mad cause I can’t remember the last time I had “me-time!” + without guilt.

ENERGY

1. When are you most running on BUSY or empty? When are you most overwhelmed? (If you could put a big pause button over the life area that is causing you the most stress, strain, and lack of achievement or cyclic non-effectiveness, to sift through and discover the little energy brat in there, what area would you hone in on?)

let these questions just run through your mind, and consider….

Is this activity something you committed to a few years ago? a few months ago?

Is it working for you?  (remember just because it did meet a need for you once, we are always changing evolving and welcoming in the new, so there is a natural season for everything, and its okay to reanalyze your current needs.)

Is there something you have always done but no longer feel it’s a part of your heart’s desire?

Where are you, that you don’t want to be?

Why are you there? What fear do you have of NOT BEING THERE?

Where would you rather be? Who would you be with? Or would you be alone? What would you be doing?

If you honor your current needs, and let other areas go –even if you get smack for awhile from the ones who you love –your true friends will want you to be happy and you will be a happier person.

The truth is that we train others with our behaviors, and so we can untrain them just the same and eventually the friction will pass, and the true will remain. Isn’t that what we want anyway?

It’s just not worth it to give our TIME and our ENERGY to where WE ARE NOT FULLY PRESENT AND HAPPY.

The resistance in these areas is what is draining us and our time is wasting away –the only consequence is we are losing THE BEST PART OF OUR LIVES.

Rather than saying no as so many self-helpers say… we need to say…

LEARN TO SAY “YES!” to you.. and the rest can work itself out gradually, one decision, one step, one day and one relationship at a time.

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EMPOWERING YOU

Realign with your Heart, and others who love you will realign with your evolving Self, and since we all struggle with these issues, by one person taking a stand often it empowers others in the inner circle or close networking to consider doing the same.

The biggest aha I have learned in my life lately: “I cannot be everything to everyone, but I can be the best of me.” When I honor my own being, I am happier, healthier, and going with the flow of my own life ~ and this will bless others more!

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RELATIONSHIPS

1. Who is true to you always ? with you very companionable ? and lifts you up when you forget to fly ?

There are different kinds of relationships and degrees of closeness. Often our relationships are as close as we let them be, depending on how close we want to be with ourselves.

For example, the more you grow some of your friends might not like the more thought-provoking questions of life, or they might love that you’re helping them by sharing expansive insights. The truth is that we move at our own pace, and we all choose as we’re ready. So, its not personal.

What you need to know is who your tribe is. This handful will not likely change. Invest in them, its worth your time and energy, period.

After this, it gets tricky.

Because, it goes back to the TIME and ENERGY thing.

How much are you able to give “without compromising your relationship with your own journey.” We’re all on a journey, and if we spend too much time on other people’s paths or they are always on ours, it can be too much. We need space to discover and explore on our own too. This is natural.

So what gets in the way….

*Expectations we have of ourselves –to be able to give a certain measurement to others, to fix other people or their problems (huge distractors and zappers of energy because we have no control of them or their responses).

**Expectations of other’s to meet our needs –ahhh this is so huge, and lately I’m ADJUSTING to meet my own needs so that I don’t secretly expect a spouse, or a tribal member who might be needing more time on their journey for growth or family etc, and cannot be there for me all the time in this season. It’s time that I care for me, and meet my own needs, and who better because there is no games – i know what I want and or need so I need to do something for me.

*Not letting people have their journey.This prevents both them and us from moving clearly forward and with responsibility for our own being.

WHAT I HAVE FOUND HELPFUL:

*The more I have learned to step back, delegate, withdraw to care for my journey, and let people go to enjoy their journey and problem solve their way out —and try to just listen (which is a huge gift to give!).. and less initiating conversations for awhile and not rushing responses out of obligation –rather heart nudgings, the happier I have felt.  This whole fantastic and difficult season of letting go has been eye-opening and relaxing and crazy and beautiful altogether!

The truth is that no one has left me that is true, it has been a beautiful spaciousness actually! Love dissolves the gap.

*Understanding I can create my own future moment by moment by every decision that I give my full attention to is also so impactful!I find myself asking more intimate questions like “Do I really want to create this for my next experience in life?” It is not the usual question of “Does this feel good? so temporal”.. Every encounter is a journey point, like an opening.. so we’re choosing to go through –benefits and non-benefits will develop lessons.

Lastly, I want to challenge you to eliminate toxic relationships. and withdraw significantly from those who are constantly negative.

We all know these Unhealthy Learning Point Encounters: let’s just say it’s SOUL draining and PHYSICALLY overbearing, EMOTIONALLY discouraging, depressing even from the content and the cyclic abusive and toxic behaviors.

We do not need to put up with it. We deserve better than this.

eventually even these things can become familiar and yet we might think they are separate from us. The thing is though that toxicity only goes one way.. which mean it contaminates. Goodness has to happen on the inside and work itself out, toxicity pollutes. That’s why it has to be eliminated or it will worsen and our attitudes and behaviors will eventually mimic what we are around constantly.

we are in an agreement when we’re in a relationship, meaning that you’re just as much missing the mark as them if you stay. You’re “Agreeing” by staying, that’s the default and guess who gets jipped? It’s certainly not them!

Imagine the impact of this area of relationships on the TIME, ENERGY scale as well. This can suck the life out of a person … and it does every day.

Standing up for our lives is essential and takes every ounce of courage.

The enemy is not the bad it is the good enough that steals from The Best! The settling is our demise.

I believe that anyone can conquer fear by doing the things he fears to do,
provided he keeps doing them until he gets a record of successful experience behind him.
- Eleanor Roosevelt

You  and me, well we have to decide as individuals –because we’re creating our experiences.
So if we don’t like it, we need to check our agreements, and realign with our heart visions.

There is no peace until we come into our own Beingness.

hugs, Jenn

Here is a song for you today, celebrating a new journey:  Ryan Farish music:

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Practice makes unfolding into a new natural territory, a reality that is possible.

Hi to my lovely followers or today’s guest thanks for stopping in and joining me!

“We are shaped and fashioned by what we love.” ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Otherwise even routine, becomes old, and unromantic.

SO WHAT DO YOU LOVE? WHAT MAKES YOU PASSIONATELY OVERFLOW? WHAT DETAILS CATCH YOUR EYE?

How much exploration effort do we actually spend IN our soul’s pleasures?

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Here are 11 Ways to Romance the Soul… ready??

1. Be willing to step out, or get up, or wiggle free.

So today I enjoyed a lovely candlelit Indian breakfast by myself, and actually I sort of appreciated:

a) my  choice to get up earlier –I mean stay up after waking up and walk to the kitchen and let my little voice within call me into an adventure.

I think I was inspired the other day by my Ayurveda book or notes that talked about if we could just wake up 15 mins earlier we could have a nourishing breakfast.

Okay, so I took a bit longer than 15 mins, but it truly was therapeutic (soulful, and fun)

so yay, I listened to my heart and followed the intuitive choice into Making-My-Reality-Great!

2. Doing something different.

b) my hard work -diligence to make the homeade chapatis, which involves waiting time, so i had time to make tea, and then prepare the herbs and ghee, and make the yummy scrambled eggs, adding just a touch of fresh lemon juice because it smells so delicous and awakening!!

3. Celebrate the moment, not because someone else has to affirm something.

c) and then having a candlelight breakfast.. like who does that?

maybe for dinner, but I think we should start doing that for breakfast sometimes too. Why wait til the day is practically over to romance the soul?? (my thoughts exactly!)

d) I’m learning that I’m worth it, even if the guest at the table is me, and well God.

4. Be Intentional and Aware of What I Like, What Makes Me Like Something.

(In this age, we are so fed by what others like about us, I say screw it, I don’t need someone to like it, I can like myself and my own ideas. I’m tired of being a sheep in a herd. lol.. It’s time to take my own trail-blazing path. It starts with letting myself like and thinking my own thoughts.)

So what do you like, and how do you romance your soul? Have you thought about it?

5. Possibilities After Work, Other Than Sleeping or Zoning Out.

Make a list –even a handful will be revitalizing to consider even before the next rainy day hits.

6. Welcome change.

The soul loves to evolve, and shift and be without lines.

7. Try Some New Colors, and even Aromas In Your World!

Most people don’t realize this but color is very much linked to new worlds. Sensory details and experiences are easily accessed when one respects the gift of color, and if aromatherapy is your thing or if you just like making delicious cakes or brownies or cultural dishes, or a fancy spice collection… whatever it is in these areas —welcome it all in! And you’ll wake up consciously to more depth, clarity, and romance in your world! It’s all about AWAKENING OUR SENSES and letting ourselves participate in the human experience.

We are here after all, so we must’ve known something higher up before we chose to come here that made us want to fit in these tiny vessels to carry our message through ….

8. Slow to enjoy life.

So, take the time to be, more than do. Rest a little. I cannot say how witnessing zoning out is even exhausting.. I want to rescue, because the more I am learning to be still and meditate and get unserious about life by participating in the moment, the more I want to say hey everyone, we’re really missing it! Sure we’re speeding into the next coolest endeavor with the crowd but did you forget the joy of living, and community refreshment, and writing notecards to bless others and receiving something other than junkmail in our mailboxes every day? (okay hospitality is my thing, so i notice this.) But, its so true. We connect all the time with others.. but IT’S NOT CONNECTING people, it’s checking in gonzales.. and its killing us. It’s time to take back our own permission slip to Live a Real Life with the Ones We Love, not write them online while they sit next to us. sheesh.. we have a weird world..

9. We need intimacy, but it begins with our self -the first Relationship with our soul and its Maker.

I always thought intimacy was a barrier with all of its triggers of shoulds and shouldnots that still linger in my programmed mind, and then lately I realize that I cannot be truly intimate without fear, until I learn to be completely One within myself. It’s really not complicated, it’s about my relationship to the divine.

I believe that we each hold a piece of the Divine in us. It requires utmost care in order to be nurtured and developed from that seed into existence. That is the Relationship we are after.. Until we pay attention to this, we’re just playing technique and fear games with ourselves that we’re not good enough –when if we admitted we’re enough and we’re divine, then we begin to wake up to our own Return to Love. Once this is in order –first priority, Love takes us to the BEST PLACES, and our life is shifted into a new perspective … wow! .. the ripples happen from there..

10. Trust the unknown.

but I was hurt once! no way..So I am anyway, because we all have to trust something. Romance cannot begin without a platform of trust. At some point we have to be willing to give it a go, with something or someone. I figure I’ll start with the same Constancy that brings the sun up every morning and puts the world to sleep at night, because I for one am not too constant… must ado learning this one still!

11. Make friends with your loves. Be Loyal to You, First!

What do you love? Explore It, Claim It, Pursue It! Be Loyal to You! You owe it to yourself!

I am learning lately to say I love myself to me, only its a bit adjusted because that’s just a bit weird for me yet.

My personal peak journey is Paris. She represents my journey, the Higher Feminine Self that I am and yet also becoming altogether.. though of course I feel far from it… So I look at this collage I made that feels like a mirror into that truth, and I think and sometimes say “I love Paris.” To me its not saying I love the place, the location, but I love this divine truth that is calling me into the unknown. I love who I am becoming.

I am learning to align with a love who accepts me for who I am, but for now I call to my Higher Self {in partnership with the Divine} until I am fully living and dressing the part and I love, therefore I will be drawn into Love completely.

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Will you practice some romance for your soul —today?

The Return is much like a pilgrimage; it involves the whole heart, a focused mind, and acknowledgment of soul, and it cannot be rushed –because its a journey. How will you romance your soul Self on this journey?

Thank you for being on this soul adventure with me.

do any of these ideas resonate deeply for you? If not, that’s okay. Share one!

but most importantly, I hope you’ll choose to romance your soul too!

hugs, Jenn

I am learning post-perfectionism to cultivate a simple beginner’s mindset, gathering momentum, and zest for Saving Grace Projects.

Now, less quick to throw things away, I have been finding unique uses for things found in corners just sitting there waiting for activity.

So, in the name of Saving-Something-Not-So-Perfect to be a canvas for Creative Expression-With-Spontaneous-Grace,

I found 30 white paper lunch bags. 

in all honesty, no i’m not about to make puppets, I just never got that tingle.

however, I figure why even plan, just begin with intention to create one, enjoy repetition that has creative avenue. Each bag can become what it wants to – no rules, no plan, just trusting Creativity to meet me there.

3 bags are done so far, in three days.

I’m not rushing, but it feels like its something going somewhere.

POSSIBLE HIGHLIGHTS in this experience:

*Maybe its to gain confidence with consistency. I have struggled with both in the past.

*Maybe its to free my carefree spirit to its power again.

*I like recycling. My grandma was Queen Recycler and she saved everything. Maybe I’m trying to create from a few other things I have sitting that want to be Saved Gracefully.

*Building momentum from a stand still experience.

I want to start blogging again and from my heart, so in creating these small canvases at home, I believe its symbolic of gentle show ups and expecting the divine to meet me in the small things. So maybe it will show me that I can be consistent and I can commit to stuff after all.

*It could be building intention: to not waste another bag {or my life moments}. After all what the value of either? Sometimes I think the small things are easiest to waste without realizing it –

*It could be building more character. Character counts in the small things.

*I like creating and playing. I’m kinda new at the latter –letting the little kid in me come out again so I think in a sense I’m letting her do what she wants with these paper bags.

Okay so what does this have to do with you?

maybe you don’t have a stash of white canvas bags or care to be found decorating potential hospitality packages or what have you, and that’s okay. (That’s something I like… is just making something, creating spontaneously,  and the gift of hospitality and encouragement –However, I’m sure you have canvas materials in your place too, though!)

But, I still think this activity could produce exciting personable results from you and for you. And I’m sure that what you find is just perfect as a small canvas to Save rather than toss.

i dare you to check and do a quick comb through a few rooms of your place and let your heart choose a few items. It might be so random –that is wonderful! See if you can find 10-15 items  (depending on what it is.. mind you.) The point is to find a way to use up the old for something new. Think small, this is not to overwhelm, its meant as small stretches.

TRANSFORMATION – American Heritage Dictionary

The act or an instance of transforming. The state of being transformed. A marked change, as in appearance or character, usually for the better.

Enjoy the Process! there is a difference between pushing and pressing through to completion. I’m for the latter, as I felt the pushing enough in my life. This is meant to have fun, unravel, and let yourself open up!

~I might take a photo of the 30 bags once I’m done to post, if this would encourage others. This next month I’m working on this spontaneous project! I’m not wasting a bag! some bags might take longer than others, it just depends how the creative spirit moves, and its perfect however it is.

JOIN ME, and share what canvases you’ve found around your house if you like. I’d love to hear…

for the logical WHY ?… We’re transforming the small, as our own life transforms into new, richer experiences!

hugs,

Jenn

a) where you’re going.

b_ where the person you are following is going.

Most of my life I spent in lane b.

no more.

I thought I was doing what I was supposed to, listening and pleasing others and being a ‘good girl.’

at the cost of my own inner wisdom, I leaned on someone else’s convictions for my life.

The following someone else’s path ~habit stuck even into adulthood, until the slow unraveling to find out my own thoughts and personal truth began.

You see the first lane a is not about speed but it is about ‘Knowing Where You’re Going.’

The truth is that I did not trust myself to choose, to stake my whole beingness on one thing.

I feared what others would think, and I feared messing up and being a big ninny of wrongness, so I let someone else decide for me. I followed because it felt safer. Little did I know until years later how dangerous this really was.

I was agreeing to place my one life in someone else’s hands (and human at that!) yikes…

fragile, and likely hurt would obviously leave me empty and worn because …(they weren’t usually looking back as much as moving forward, which meant I was settling in  for a lonely wearisome journey, and I had no clue where we were going.)

It is about surety, and determination.

It is about setting the heart and keeping it set.

In following, my heart was losing its power, and silencing even numbing in order to survive –because it didn’t want to go THAT WAY!

I wanted to feel better, to experience love and to be loved, but even that was temporal.

Now, I know with all that I am, from the core of who I am that I AM GOING HOME.

nothing and no one can stop me, and so I invite you to join me if you align with this vision in your own heart.

It’s a personal homecoming. 

Doesn’t this sound good?

Scattered we are, but these home-oriented individuals criss-cross their life trails with stories and depth which act as inner warriors for us all who are uncertain and mirror to us the SURE place we all long for and faintly remember.

Recently I’ve joined with Love that is trailblazing the way to keeps on revealing jewels of the One heart ..

What does home mean to you?

I don’t mean a building , though at times home might reflect itself thru memorable experiences on the way home.

I don’t mean a single person because certainly there is no perfect home on earth.

I am talking about the Christ-consciousness that has risen above it all, making it possible to SEE.

I follow One who has walked this human path before, and knows the way.

LOVE in its purest form is home to me.

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Christ excelled with relationship-building, and ‘Staying with people’ –he made time for traveling and bringing people where He was going to share important stories and values and everyday life revelations to awaken them to their own consciousness. All who met him had their own story to share when they left, but what remained the same was their life change was evident and Their very lives reflected SURENESS.

I am committed to a transformed life to follow in these footsteps, one baby step at a time to learn more of This Love and Intimate Hospitality. **Everything we need is within us.

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And the whisper is felt in the depths of my being, …

and some days and nights it comes like a cry to rise above that day’s challenges, to feel lighter from the weight of life piling on me again, but mostly it is a simple soul’s longing and the need ‘to go (an action, a knowing)’ back home:

“Abide In Me, and I in you, Stay with me. Ask whatever you will in this position and I will bless you with your needs and even your authentic wants.” John 15:7

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but even that seems hard to reach. This faith-based intimacy with my own life is a new concept and scares the living beegeebees out of me, yes I know missspelled.. but seriously –I’m going to put everything I’ve got right here!

This is it: My sure upon sureness choice.

This life, its not ours to hold, its a gift we desperately crave, and need, and cannot live without.

but what of life if not FULL OF LOVE?

Isn’t love really another word for HOME(filling up the present moment), and Homecoming(where we are going when we’re following after Love.)

It’s the one thing that does not change is this Real Love. Love is everywhere.

Love is Source.

Lately my prayers have been: Please dear God, give me a place to lay my head, to rest awhile, to be comforted, and to know peace.

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Are You Sure about where you’re going today? Do you have a vision? Will you share it with the world? What small step can you take today on behalf of your soul’s knowing?

Its still not enough unless we as individuals align with The Truth, our God-given conscience and values, and not rest until the feeling of peace inside of us dwells freely.

because at the end of the day, it’s just us and God. What about this relationship?  This One is all that matters.

Peace is the difference between going the right way or the wrong way. If you have it, you are, If you don’t, turn around.

Will you come HOME? I hope you will.

It’s your story after all.

hugs,

Jenn